Rebecca Löwengrip

 POSS PÅ ER! ♥

The last day of this year is already here! 2010 had been a wonderful year, one of the best one's in my life. Compared to 2009, which was one of the worst years in my life. Therefore I have real hopes of 2011 becoming a really good year! I'm not one to get my hope's up, in fear of dissapointment. But I see life as your choice, sure you have a certain road to walk in life, but whether you enjoy walking that road or not is completly up to you. Like a party, you have as fun as you make it, you can sit and sulk in a corner all night and no one will speak to you. Or you can decide to be social and talk to people, and you will automatically have fun!

This is what my 2010 had been about! I've been social and met lots of new people, I've got boatloads of new friends and acquaintances! I've had fun, I've been out and about. I've seen new bits of the world, learned new things in life. Opened my eyes and gotten new perspectives. Learned A LOT of lessons in life, the hard way. I'm not saying this year's been a party, no I've struggled a lot. But I kept going, because I have such wonderful friends who supported me all the way, and life turned around. I've been at the bottom this year, but the best thing is that I came out of it. I climbed my way up to reality again, and I will never go back. I'm strong enough and stubborn enough to never go back. Reality's hard, but that's life. And how would you recognize the happiest moments in life if you haven't seen the worst?

Live life, enjoy it as much as you can, laugh, cry, scream, be angry. Just LIVE your life. Don't let it pass you by because you only live once. My motto in life is "Life's to short to think about the past, move forward and learn from your experiences with no regrets.". Trust me, you don't want to sit there when you're old and wonder what you did with your life. And I'm not talking about school, or jobs. I'm talking about what people these days so easily forget, to live your life, love, respect, friendship.

Don't forget these things in your hunt for your perfect life, filled with money and power. What matters most in life is probably what you've already got, your family and friends. The people around you that you love. Start appreciating what you got! Who's always there for you when you're in need? Who can you call in the middle of the night to just talk to? That's what life's about, never forget that.

Love to you all, hope you have a wonderful New Year's eve! And I hope you'll be blessed in 2011!

Hi! I got in not long ago! pheeeeww... I'm tired. I told you that me and my friends were having a mini-Christmas at my place tonight. Well, the plans fell apart. And while I was in town with My my boss called and asked if I wanted to work. First I said no, but then another one of my bosses called again. And then I knew that my friends weren't coming over, so I said yes. Like why not?  

So that's what I've been doing all night, working. I also stayed more than two hours longer, so I worked over-time. Again. But you know, why not? Haha, I have no life. Only bad thing was that I got to clean the machine that cooks the meat, so i got the fun task of removing all the raw excess meat. I still smell like it... :( But seriously, if you live alone money's everything. Especially when you don't have it. But that's why I just got in, and why I'm soooo tried. And why I'm eating noodles at 2 o'clock in the morning.. But I had fun at work! We were three girls closing today, me, Sara and Karin. I really liked both of em, but sadly it was their last day, both of em! :/ Perhaps they'll come back ^^ 

This day was a nice one! It was cozy meeting up with My, and then one of her friends. First we went to John Chris (where else :P) and then we went for a bit of shopping! I bought some lingerie, I had to. But still it's nice with new one's! ^^

Well time to finish my noodles, shower and then SCHLEEP!

Over n out, good nighty!


My and I had a sallad to share,then we drank latte's. Yumm :)


This is what I bought! Nice huh? Imma wear it tomorrow ^^

HEEEEY!! Hope you're all good! This caption is a bit special, becauuuuuuse... IT'S THE HUNDRED ONE! Whoop whoop! I kept my blog going! And imma keep doing it ;)

I just woke up, I'm still tired as heeeeell. It kinda feels like a hangover. My head hurts, my feet and my legs HURT, and I feel kinda nauseous... wierd huh? But my co-workers said that after a week or two you get used to it. Yaaaaayy....??

Anyways, I need to hurry a bit cus I'm off to meet My in town. I wont be there that long cus later my friends are coming over later to have like a mini-Christmas, just the four of us! A tradition we've had since we were 13 or something :)

Over n out. Peace y'all! :)

 seeeexyyy.....

Hellu everyone! I got in not long ago! Today's been a good day, it's getting better and better at work. Thing is you just have to get used to the rythm, and what you should do first and so on... I still ask questions all the time, but it's getting better. And everyone there's so nice and helpful. I really like it there :)

And now after a long day, I've just showered, and now I'm fixing my nails. It's impossible to keep nice nails when you work at a fast food resturant! They chip all the time and break... sigh. But now I've fixed them and they're red. So they will look nice for New Year's! :D

Tomorrow I'm meeting My in town for a cup of coffe and a chat! :) While I'm in town I need to look for some black shoes to work in, at the moment I'm working in my winter boots! NO GOOD! And I desperatly need a new foundation, thing is I use Clinique, cus they're the best. But they're so expensive.. :/ We'll see what I'll come home with ;)

Well I need to chill down a bit, and then it's time for beeed! Ahhhh, it's gonna be so nice to rest! :)

Good night!

 Me and My! ♥ This is in Greece last summer! Take me back... :(

Whaddup!! I'm in such a good mood today! It's rare, I know. But still, it's wonderful! I need all the energy I can get since I'm working from 11-20.30 today. Long day, but the paycheck's gonna be WORTH IT! :D I really gotta finish my breakfast and then get outta here!

Won't be much blogging today for obvious reasons. But you'll have two GREAT tunes to listen to today! The other one comes lataaaahh!

Bye all u sexy bitches! :)

Unts, unts, unts, unts.....

Today I've been with my Mandish all day! It was so nice hanging out, just me and her. :) First we ate lunch at John Chris, I had a delicious Ceasar sallad. YUMMIE! :) Then we went window shopping, you know just looking around. And just for the record, I love to shop, but I HATE wondow shopping. It's so BORING... So it was like we were a couple, I was obviously the guy, since I sat in a corner while Amanda looked around and tried things on. Haha.

Then we met up with Mich-pich and Hedil (she has a blog too, link below) cuz Micha were getting her navel pierced! :D So we all went together and watched! And now I wanna get one too! It looked real nice. Well, I'll get my tattoo first, then we'll see! ;) After that we went to Åhléns a bit to look at haircolouring products. Hedil wants to colour her hair kinda blond, so we stood there forever waiting for her to decide. But she didn't... I want to colour it too, I think I might keep this colour, but perhaps I'll colour it darker.. Hmmm...

Anyways, we bought some candy and stuff, and then we went to McD's :D Wiiee, soo good. But it kinda felt like cheating on Max, hahahahha. :P And when we were done there, we split up. Cus me and Manda were gonna go watch a movie! We saw "The Social Network"! Both of us really liked that film, it was good. Unpredictable and never boring, and you had to keep up with the story line all the time. My kind of movie. I hate when I can predict a whole movie, and I hate it when I can kinda snooze through the movie and still keep up... I'm picky, what can I say.

All in all, a good day! Now I have to sleep. I was supposed to work from 11-17.15 tomorrow, but my boss called me and asked if I could work until 20.30. And like I wrote before, I need the cash, so why say no?

Good night y'all! :)


Amanda's a bit camera shy..


We got there early, the whole salon was packed later. Even though
the movie has been in theaters for quite a while.


Yummie!


Candylicious! :D

Hedil's blooog! :) --> http://hedilsfula.blogg.se/index.html

Whaddup peeps? I kinda just got in. My boss asked me if I wanted to work to 10. And since I need the cash, I took it. But working from 11.30 to 22.00 (with a 30 minute break, the whole day) and then stay longer to fix the chash register, it reslutet in me geetting in like 40 minutes ago... I'm so tried in my body and mind, that the word tired doesn't even suffice... I'm already in my bed, and soon I'll be sleeping! Aaah, so wonderful! :)

And another bonus, I'm not working tomorrow. :) I'm meeting up withmy friend Amanda! Can't wait! :D

Well good night, sleep tight! <3

This is my kinda chill music! :)

And finally here's part 3 of my London trip in march! :) And stay tuned, for more of my reminicing of this year! I also have one more trip to show you that I made this year! ;)


The London subways, or there it's the tube :)


The London Eye!


Yassi :)


View from the London Eye!


Classic ^^


The Big Ben


In Camden :)


Sofia checking out the delicious looking donuts! Which we bought, but
never ate... such a shame.


Picadilly Circus by day, not really a wow thing.


The view from our window, looks a lot nicer than it was though :P

And that was pretty much it. We took some pictures on the way home. But we were so tired cus we went on the first flight, which meant that we had to leave the hostel at 3 a.m in the morning. So we look so crack on those pictures, that I'll spare you the sight! ;P

Well, I'm off to work! See you later this evening. I finish my shift at 19.00, so I'll be home by 19.30 or something like that! I've fixed the third part for my trip to London! So that caption will be published around 3 o'clock ;)

Have a good day!

Eye candy ^^

I just woke up. I'm sitting here in my kitchen with my cup of tea, and looking at the bread, not really feeling like eating it. But that's just typically me in the morning, luckily I have about 2 hours before I have to go so I have pleanty of time to wake up. I read somwhere that it takes about 2 hours for the body to fully wake up, I don't know if it's true but it's true with me... :P

Anyway, hope you all will have a wonderful day! Most of the ordinary ppl are working today. But for the rest of you, go out enjoy the day! They say it's gonna be sunny outside, with only -4 to -7 out! ;P  And besides, the sale starts today so if you got money to spend, go out and find all the stuff waiting for you! If you don't, forget what you just read.

If I had money I would get myself a new camera. I would prefer a Nicon or a Canon. But keep dreaming right? Thing is, I travell a lot, not all the time, but quite often. And I really love it! That's why I want a really good camera, so I can capture those moments abroad. I want good quality pictures that I can look at when I'm 80, and show my grandkids :)

Another thing I would look for if I was out to get something, I would look for a New Year's dress. I have two I really like from H&M.

Looooveee!!

I've got a thing for long dresses! :D

After my sister came over, we went to my foster parent's. We didn't stay there that long, we chatted, I ate left-overs from Christmas eve, drank some coffe and ate chocolate. ^^ 

And while we were there we found out that some their relatives from Örebro was in Stockholm until tomorrow, so me and Amanda went to visit them. It was real nice, we just sat there and chatted for like 2 hours. The relatives from Örebro are going to Egypt tomorrow. I'M SO JEALOUS! I want to go somewhere too! :'( But that got me and my sister thinking, so we're planning to go to Visby this summer! Although summer's far away, you need to start planning now if you want to be there at Stockholms veckan! OOOH, I'm so excited! I've never been to Gotland, and I hear it's really beautiful there! :) Wiiiiiiie :D

Right now I'm chillin' in my bedroom, I've lit some candles and I finished the box of After Eight. Yummie! But now I've got to stop with the candy! I've eaten so much this Christmas it's insane! Haha, and I kinda feel sick of it. Kinda. Well, anyway, I gotta sleep soon cus I got work tomorrow, 11.30 to 19.00. :)

Good night sleep tight, don't let the bed-bugs bite ;)

Aah, memories!

The first week of march we had a break in school. My friend and I decided to go to London! There we spent a week, me, my friend Yassi, her sister Sofia and their mother Anneli! Such a wonderful week! Here's some pictures from that week :D


On our way! Yassi and Sofia on the train!


Anneli :)


We flew with Ryan air, so we had to wait alot at Skavsta...


On the plane! Not a very pretty pic though, haha.


The first thing we did, go to Starbucks! :D Mmm, their hot cocoa, yumm..


At Madame Tussauds, this kinda looks real :'( I wish..


Yassi and Julia Roberts


Sofia n Will Smith


Me n Bob Marley :)


London street <3


Picadily circus at night


At Hyde park corner


Hyde park, a tree growing out of my head :P

There will be more parts soon!! ;)

I truly hate to clean. But I love it when it's clean in the appartment, when all the stuff is in it's place, when all the dust is gone. Just simply clean. Love it. :)

My relatives just left, it was really cozy to have them here! We drank some coffe, ate some cookies and just chatted. And I got a beutiful flower from my aunt, and chocolate from my uncle from the states! YUMMIE! :D

Now I'm waiting for my sister to come over, then I don't know what I'm gonna do. Perhaps go to my fosterparent's. Can't really do much tonight, cus I have to work tomorrow, 11.13-19.00. But I want to work, I love to have money! Hahaha ^^

Deuces!

Hellu everyone! I just woke up, not by purpose ofc. But I couldn't sleep, so when I finally got some rest it was like 7 in the morning! I almost wanted to just stay up then, but I was too tired. Anyway, I reeeaaally gotta go cus my family from my mothers side's coming over, and I gotta clean my appartment!!!!! No joke. The place look like a bomb of clothes went off. Damn, I HATE cleaning...

This is what I watched last night when I couldn't sleep, enjoy!


Hahahahahahahah I LOVE HER!!! ;D

I'm so full. My old folks can really cook a delicious dinner! It was a nice evening spent with my grandma, grandpa and my cousin Isa. Her dad was there for a while but then he left. We all ate dinner together and then we watched some TV and ate candy and icecream. ME LIKIE!! ^^

On my way home I accidently ran in to my relatives from my mothers side. And we chatted some, and they're coming over tomorrow for a cup of coffe. Funny how life is sometimes, fate's really playing some sort of game. Or some one uppstairs wants us to put things right. And I'm all for it, you should never take anything for granted, especially family.

However, this means I have some serious cleaning to do before they come over. My appartment looks like SHIT! There's clothes everywhere, and I need to wash the dishes. Well let's get to it... Or I'll do it tomorrow :P I'm really tired right now.. Haha.

Good night everyone! Here's, of course, a nice tune for ya ;)

I've been humming this song all day, they played it alot last night.

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas yesterday! I had a wonderful day! Even though it started kinda rough, it totally got better and better! My sister picked me up at 2, and we went to the cemetary and lit candles for my parents. After that we picked up Sara, my sisters cousin, and we went home to my fosterparent's! We arrived earlier than everyone else. So it was just the three of us and my fosterparents first, and we watched "Kalle Anka och hans vänner". Even though it's the same every year, it's a nice tradition which I love. Then we started preparing dinner and such, I made a Christmastree-shaped cake! And then all the relatives started arriving. It was really a full house, but that's the way it's supposed to be! :) We ate delicious food, cake and lots of candy and stuff :D

Around eight most of the relatives went home, and some of them went to a concert. But that's when the real party began ;) We mixed drinks, listend to music, danced and chatted. It's was really fun! And at 11 me, my sister and Sara went out. Not to  town, to mp! Haha, but we had soooooooooo much fun!! There we met up Dalia, my sister's best friend. And the four of us partied all night long, eh well until 3 when the place closed.

So in conclusion I had a really GREAT Christmas!! :D Hope you all did!


Here's the cake I made! :D


Preparation of the food


Not even half of the food


The table, there were alot of us! All of us didn't even fit at the table, so
me, my sister and my fosterdad sat at another table infront of the TV!
Haha, but we called it the cool table, only the coolest sat there... hahaha


Opening gifts! We were so many this year so my fostermom said that
we had a no-gifts-policy, with exception for the kids ofc. Worked for me
since I'm broke, haha ^^


Angie with her new doll :)


Sara and my brothers son, Kian. The little prat didn't want to sit still so
I could take a proper picture of him :P


Sanna (my fostermom) fixing the food :)


We had a fire! Soooo cozy :)


At Mp afterwards, me n my sis with tha bathroom pic ;)

I just want to take the time to write about a friend of mine. Nina. It's her birthday today (well at least for 30 more minutes) and she turns 19! Your last year of being a teenager. Feels weird right? Time hasn't caught up with us yet, when I think of you I think of the 8 year old you. When we used to play outside of our building. All the games we used to play, all the time we spent on our inlines and on the swings. We've gone thorugh so much together, and you've really been there for me. You are like a sister to me, and I know you feel the same way. It's weird that we've know eachother for 11 years now, and we're as close as ever before. We may not see eachother that often because we have our separate lives. But the best thing about you is that I know I've got you, no matter what. You'll always be there on the other end of a phonecall or a text. Yeah, all this mushy stuff is getting to ya, huh? Well enough of that...

HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY JUSSI HASSAN! (inside joke) Enjoy your last year of teenage life, and let's look forward to antoher 11 years, eh wtf let's go for 22, 33, 44, 55 years! I DON'T CARE CUS WE'RE GONNA STICK TOGETHER! All 4 of us are going to sit there on that retirement home, reeeeeeaaally old and ugly, and talk about our boatloads of grandkids we've got and how they don't visit us enough!!!!! Love you, and happy birthday!!

 Me and Nina on New Years 2 years ago! ♥

Tomorrow it's Christmas, and I must say I'm not really as happy as I should be. Thing is, I've celebrated with my family from my mother's side since I was born. Even after my mother died, I kept celabrating with them, I would be with them on Christmas eve. And then celebrate with my own father and my grandparents the day after, on Christmas day. Always them first. But something changed, I don't know why, but this year I'm doing neither. And I'm sad in a way, but I'm okay. No need to feel sorry for me.

What brings me tears is the fact that no one even called me to ask if I wanted to come on Christmas eve. And my relatives from the states are here over Christmas, and I didn't even know. When did this happen? When was it okay to exclude family members like this?  Okay, one of you tried to call, but I have no missed calls on my cell. Once doesn't even count. And other than that, silence. Like it's okay to gather your family around you, but you choose to exclude one person. Like it's okay to write on your status on facebook that "you're gathering the family, well in the best way you can", when you clearly haven't.  They say you can't choose you family, well apperently you can pick and choose which one's you want. Thank you for making me understand. And one of my friends told me a while ago (this isn't the first time) that I shouldn't be this surprised, I shouldn't take it so hard. And she's right.

I have a new family that I'm extreamly thankful for, my foster parents and their family. I belong with them, I feel like I fit in with them. They're worth more than anything to me, I wouldn't replace them for anything. And the best thing is, they took me in. I am family. No doubt, no questions asked. And I thank God for them EVERY NIGHT in my prayers. I love them so much I can't even describe it. I can actually cry because I'm so thankful that I have them. Yeah, I've lost both of my parents. But my life isn't lost. I have a beautiful life of which I'm thankful for every day. I have my family and my friends I have my grandparents (they're not my real one's either), and I had two beautiful parents who gave me this life. I miss you every day, but I thank you for being such wonderful parents and showing me how beautiful life is.

I am thankful.

I LOVE THIS SONG!!! :D

Aaaaaah, this day went GREAT! Asså seriöst, de gick fett bra för mig. Visst jag gjorde en miljard fel typ, men ja hade kul och de e de som räknas faen ;D De va galet sköna människor som jobba där, så ja kmr trivas! Fick en riktig surkärring som kund, men hellre de än 10! Äee fan, e stolt över mig själv faktiskt, o ja e den mest självkritiska människan ever... So that gotta tell ya somethin'? Right? :)

Efter jobbet va ja galet död så ja drog till mina fosterföraldrar, galet mys! Älskar att va där, bara känna sällskapet av sin familj e bästa känslan ever! God mat också! Sen fick drack vi lite té och åt Aladin praliner, yummie! :) Vi kolla på TV gick ut me hundarna, the usual. ^^ Sen va min fostermamma den BÄSTA och gav mej TVÅ stora toblerone choklader OCH EN after eight!! IMMA GET FAT! :D

Här e lite pictures från igår! :)


Elin n me


allahopa, elin, jag, micha, alvaro o my


♥


Haha




I'm a vampire...

Hope you slept good and/or slept in :) I've had a really good night's sleep, so great, I really needed an energy boost like this. And I dreamt about my parents, I think it means they're with me today cus I'm so nervous. We did diffrent things in my dream, thigs that we used to do together. With my mom I spent Christmas, it was our favorite holiday. And with dad we kinda just went around in the car, which I miss alot. Just spending time with him like that. But it was like when I was little, and I was little in this dream. Many things happened in my dream, but my dad was there for me. I even told him I was scared at one point, and he said me too. But I still got to hold his hand and I felt safe.

So now when I'm up I feel calm and ready for this day! It's wonderful. I miss my parents so much, but it's times like these I know that they're with me all the time, watching over me when I need them. They are my guardian angels. ♥

 When I was little and lived with my mom, she bought this picture
 and hung it in my room next to my bed. The funny thing is that I googled
 'Guardian Angels', and this was the top reslut.
Maybe coincidence, but I felt happy.

Heeeeeey! I. Am. So. Tired! I stayed up all night for nothing! So irritating! Thing is that I stayed up, I didn't fall asleep or anything, and when it was time for me to go to the laundry room I go down with all the things. I get there (it's a bit to walk) and put all my stuff in the machines and the detergent and everything. I press the buttons and nothing happens, so I look at my clock and realize I'm like 3 minutes early. So I wait, and wait. It's 10 past 7 and nothing happens. I go out to look at the information papers outside of the laundry room, don't you think that just this particular time between 7 and 10 on week-ends there's no washing your clothes!! :@ :@ :@ ALL FOR NOTHING! So I get all of my stuff, unwashed, and go home again totally pissed off. So I fell asleep in my sofa watching Nanny. Then I woke up at 1. Thank God I'm tired now anyway, so I'll get a good night's sleep so I can get up early tomorrow! :)

Besides that and my bus not showing up, I've had a really good day! Micha, Elin, Alvaro, My and I went ice skating in Kungsträdgården! We had so much fun, it's hard to describe like this, you had to be there! :D After that we went to Kungshallarna and ate lots of delicious food and talked. And laughed, and talked, and just doing some catching up with My cus she lives in Kalmar now when she's studying. :) I'll update pictures another day, besides, I don't even have them.. :P

Well, time to finish my tea and go to bed! Tomorrow's my first day at Max! :D Wish me good luck!

Äsch, vi kör en dygnare va? ^^ Asså, tänkte såhär, jag har tvätt tid kl 7-10 nu på förmiddagen. O ja märkte för en stund sen att klockan va sena natten... O ja ska ändå upp tidigt imorron (sönda) så vrf ante liksom? Har ändå vänt på dygnet nu när jag varit arbetslös så länge, time to change it back! Så vi kör en gammal goding, att dygna. Vi får se hur de går när ja ska åka skridskor me mina kömpisar imörrn på eftermiddan, däcka på isen kanske? Smått livsfarligt me alla vassa skridskor, I mean talk about blades! Haha...

Aah, I'm tired. Tänk om ja däckar i tvättstugan? Haha vill ni veta ngt kul? Mina grannar e fan special, hör musik redan nu! Eller så e de TVn, men faen endååe!! Liiiite tidigt va? Eller sent.. Maybe they just got in?

Vet att de blir lite confusing nu när ja blandar språken o skriver lite random grejer, men så e ja. När ja känner för en sak så gör ja de, o om ja känner för ngt annat så gör ja de ist. Finito. Caput. Comprende? Capish? ^^

Hitta den här låten när ja kolla runt på youtuban, hade typ helt missat den förr! den e najs, lissna på den ;)

Today it hurts. I can't deny that it hurts every day, and I think of you every day. The smallest things can make me think about you, a song, a poster, a person resembling you, just something that reminds me of you. And every single time it's like someone stabbed me in the heart. I'm starting to realize that you're never coming back, and I've stopped waiting for you to show up. I've stopped looking for you. I've accepted. That was the hardest part. But it's not easier now, it just not as difficult living without you. I really miss you, and I wish you were with me every day. But I know that in some way you are with me, every step of the way. And I hope you're proud of me, I will try my hardest to make you proud. I love you, and always will. Like you always said, I love you more than the stars, because they're impossible to count, and you can't measure my love for you.

 An old picture of me and my dad. I'll never stop missing
you dad. I love you, more than the stars.

Whaddup?! I don't really have anything to write about right now cus I've done nothing today... I've watched both The Lion King and The Lion King 2! :P Very good films, classics. Or the first one at least, I don't really know about the second one. Anyway, I'm rambling on here. My grandparent's are here now, they gave me a box of Christmas stuff. They love christmas and all of the little ornaments it comes with, they used to have 3 tables set up in their kitchen with little villages and lights, santas and reindeers. So were sitting in my livingroom drinking coffe. It's all so cozy!

Uuuughhh, I have to tell you about my dream last night! It was so scary! I dreamt that it was my first day at Max, and I get there in time and everything so I could try on the clothes you have to wear. But they say that there's no left in my size so I have to wait until this afternoon. So I go outside, like the backyard of the resturant. It was summer, and lots of people were hanging out there. Like a park in the summer, some drank beer, some sat on blankets, some played soccer. So I chilled there with the people, and there was like this attraction (like in amusement parks) that you could fly with. So that's what we did, we flew around all day! But then I went in, hoping I would be able to work. But I still had to wait until it was dinner time. So I waited in the resturant, until it was 6 o'clock. Then I asked my boss if I could work, and he told me to hurry up and get my uniform on. But the uniform was really hard to put on. So when I'm finally done I come out, but my boss starts yelling at me because I missed the whole dinner-rush. And I shouldn't bother to come back! 

And that's when I woke up! Haha talk about angciaty! Now I'm really nervous! And I wasn't before I had this dream! Damn... well, I think my first day on sunday will be great. I hope...

Does it look scary to you?


Maybe a tiny bit scary?


This is where I'll be standing... uuughh, I feel real nervous now :S


HAHAHAH guess what showed up on top results when I googled Max
Barkarby?! Karma is out to get me I'm sure xD

In February a new dancegroup was formed, I've danced in an enclosed group before (you had to audition to get in) but we didn't have a name. A lot of the people in the group quit it, so they took in new members. We had a new dancegroup, called RecognizeD! And since we didn't know all of them we spent some time together!


We had a cozy movie night at Alvaro's!


Haha, this is Alvaro. ^^


Kinshan and Micha-picha :)


My and I :)


Haha, Micha, always the one who eats. Don't let her size fool you, she
can eat twice as much as anyone! ;)


My and I spent the night at Alvaro's with Elin. We sat up almost all night
talking and getting to know eachother. And in the morning this is the
wonderful breakfast Elin and Alvaro fixed us!! <3


And after that we became such good friend's we started to see eachother
more and more outside of our dance lessons. This is the first time we went
out together! And the first time I drank Tequila, now I'm hooked for life!


Tequila shots!


Alvaro and Elin!


Battle, I think it's the usual opponents, me against Alavro x)


Haha, don't fret. It's every day life for us ;P


RecognizeD!

Aaah, today's been real nice! First I had a cup of coffe with my friend Camilla. We've known eachother since we were 10! It felt good seeing her and chatting with her. Then I went to my gran's cus she'd had that eyesurgery, but luckily she's recovering fine! Her eye looks a bit scary cus it's all red, but it's fine. So I'm happy! At gran's we ate and we chatted. They're very glad that I've finally got a job, so they congratulated me and we celebrated with cookies, tea and watching "Mysteriet på Greveholm" which by far is the best 'julkalender' so far! ^^ I've seen bits of the ones from last year and this year, but there's no way you can compare them to eachother! It's simply the best one!

On my way home I met up with Lana so she could get some of her stuff that I had at my place. We stayed and chatted for a while, but then the cold caught up with us and we parted. So now I'm home again, and I'm watching Mysteriet på Greveholm on youtube! Hihi :D

This is Christmas for me!

So here's my first part of my reminicing back on this year. It began with me arriving from the states, the celabrating New Years eve with Amanda and some of her friends. Sadly I have no pictures of that. January came with cold and a lot of snow. So with school to deal with and nothing else to do, me and my friends partied alot! Here's some pictures for you, enjoy!


Johanna turned 19!






I cut bangs, which I later regret, like I always regret cutting bangs...


Amanda, Lana and I went out. Tihis was when I still lived at my foster
parent's house :)


We tried to take pictures when we jumped, but Amanda failed time after
time...


This was the same night when we met up with some guys that we met
on New Years... I learned a lesson that night, don't go to clubs with guys
you don't know. Meet them there instead, going with them means you don't
get to dance, tounch or speak to other guys that night... But we had fun ^^


Alot of late nights, and a lot of going to McD's after :)

I slept in today, biiig time! So nice. I have to use up these last days of unemployment! Cus when I start working it will be diffrent, early mornings and late nights, how wonderful!! :D

Today I'm off to Kallhäll all day. First I'm gonna meet up with my friend Camilla to have a cup of coffe and chat. Then I'm going to my grnadmother's all day, she had eye surgery yesterday, so I wanna see how she is! Take care of her a bit. Which will be rather difficult for she is the most stubborn person I know! :)

Other than that, this will be a rather uneventful day filled with cozy chats and warm beverages. Hope you'll enjoy your days as much!

Haha, here's a classic for ya

Today I've been a good girl and done chores! Well, it was fun chores though. You know how I've written alot latley that I'm gonna fix the stuff in my hallway and go to the basement and get the boxes for Christmas? Well, I've finally done it! :) Now I have a Chrtistmas tree and everything :D Here's some pictures!


My Christmas tree!! :)


This is where I'm sitting right now, in my favorite chair with my laptop
in my lap! And I've just finished a hot cup of cocoa... Christmas feelings!

I listened to this song all the time while I was decorating :)

Anger, I feel angry. Extreme, utter anger. Some people are so selfish. I’ve experienced people in my life committing suicide, and I thought they were selfish for not thinking about the loved ones they left behind to suffer. Back then I was angry because I felt left behind, alone, hurt, helpless and scared. I’ve let go of that anger. There’s no use in it. I’ve accepted what happened and moved on, I still miss them, but in a different way. A sad way, not an angry one.

What I am angry with now, is the complete and enormous idiot who blew himself to pieces in the middle of Stockholm this Saturday. The nerve of him. To commit suicide just in the purpose of hurting others, to send a warning to others, to do “the right thing”. How is it the right thing to hurt innocent by-passers? Have they done you any harm at all? Are these people the ones who drew those pictures of the prophet Muhammad? How do you know they weren’t opposed to that, humiliating others in the face of religion? How would you know?!

Two of my friends were there. Two very close friends of mine. And I’m shocked and hurt that they had to go through this. If all of the bombs had gone off like they should’ve, my friends wouldn’t be here today. And as it happens, both of my friends have their roots in the middle-east, and so have I. And, of course the don't support the person who drew those pictures, why would they approve of humiliating a religion.

This will hurt a lot of people! The ones who were there, the person you actually killed, all of their friends and family, people who were in the blocks around who heard everything, people who won’t be able to go in to the city anymore because of fear… I know this was the purpose, but how on earth can it be “the right thing to do”?! I will never understand it, and never forgive people who hurt others on purpose like that.

And with all of these feelings I carry around, who wasn’t even there, I don’t see why people still go around with their petty problems. Bickering amongst ourselves and thinking about material things, be grateful to be alive instead, or be grateful that someone you loved didn’t happen to pass by at the wrong moment. This happens all over the world on a daily bases. Welcome to the world. We’re about half a decade behind. This is real life danger. And somehow we were lucky, lucky that it did not go as planned. That the explosion wasn’t as vast as it could have been.

Start to think about life a bit differently, I’ve been doing that for a while now. People pity me because of persons I’ve lost in my life. I am not. Of course I miss them every single day. But I am grateful for the wonderful people I have in my life and I thank God for them every day.

Good morning everyone! Today I don't have much planned... But the thing I will do is meeting up with Lana for a breef moment at the station, because she forgot a glove at my place and she needs it! :P Also, I have a transparent shirt of her that I borrowed for my brithday, and she wants that back too. I'll write more later!

Love the song, the music video, the concept, everything ^^

Exactly on this day one year ago my cousin and I went to the states! God I miss it!! I really loved it there! We were there for two whole weeks at our uncle's house in Sacramento! There we celebrated Christmas, we skiied in Lake Tahoe, went to San Francisco, Disneyland in LA, yeah lot's of stuff! And Bella and I shopped like hell! And that's a trip I'll always remember. And I'll definitely go back! I mean, I'm already planning to study there next year! Although that's in New York :)

Well here's some reminiscing..


Me at Arlanda


Bella at Arlanda


Our flight in NY got delayed, so we sat at JFK for three hours, but we
were still excited!


Outside of our uncle's house with our cousin Savannah!


Haha, I love this picture! It was a night in San Fransisco, and it was
very cold (for SF) so Bella had to borrow our aunt's jacket!


We went skiing at Lake Tahoe!


Absolutely beautiful!


In SF, do you recognize the houses from "Huset fullt"? :)


Me at a museum


At the museum, iPhone-nerd ^^


On the cablecars! Classic if you're in SF! It's absolutely a must-do!


Cousins :) I'm thinking about couloring my hair back to that coulor...


We went to Disneyland! But this is in California Adventure! I think this
ride was my favorite!

Wait a bit and I'll give you part two with more pictures!

WIIIIIIIIIEE! I GOT A JOB! Finally, after 5 months in searching for a job I've finally got one! It's at Max in Barkarby. That's the best part, it takes about 5-10 minutes for me to walk there! AWESOME! :D I start this sunday, 9-17! AAhh, finally I'll get some money ;D hahahah.

Happy, happy, happy. Over this and that my students were so cute yesterday when they preformed infron of their friends and family. I'm happy that I've had a relly good week-end! This friday I went out with Johanna, Sandra, Johanna S and KG. First we went to PG, it's like the local pub, and then we went to MP, which is like the local night club! We drank and we danced. We had lots of fun!

On saturday I woke up early for Tinkäan practise, which was ver fun! We got to make our own choreo's and experiment, it's always fun to create on your own! And we put together the pieces, and it was really good material. I think we're gonna use it for our show this spring!

After practise I had to hurry home, because we where having that surprise party for Alvaro! And the funny thing is that I had to lie to him after practice. Beacuse he wanted to go to town and shop, but I had to hurry home and get ready! So I told him I had to do my laundry and that I didn't have time! Hahaha. So a little put off that I wouldn't go with him, we parted. And I was in such a hurry! I had one hour to get ready, then Micha and I took the train and met up with Elin (his girlfriend), Natalie and his cousins in the central station. So we went together to Alvaro's cousin's house and we were greated by lots of family and friends! And there we waited for him, and when he got there we were standing in the hallway screaming "SURPRISE!!!". And after that we ate lot's of delicious food and cake, we drank and we danced until 1.30 pm! It was truly a wonderful night! And I'm so glad Alvaro had a good time! After that we went home to Alvaro's. And there were a lot of us! Haha, we slept 6 people in his room! Well, and the morning I've told you about already! BIG family breakfast <3

So, all in all. Great week-end and a GREAT start of this week!


My students gave me gifts! I've got the best students EVER!! <3
Although I've almost eaten all of it :P nom nom nom ^^

I'm tired. So tired that I don't even have the energy to write a good caption. I will tell you all about this past week-end tomorrow. But right now, I got som Chillin' to do ;) I'm so tired that I even fell asleep on the train home, good thing I woke up just in time to get off! :P Btw, the show went GREAT! So proud of my students, they're the BEST!<3

A tune-lunie for ya...

Whaddup?! The party last night was GREAT!! Alvaro got so surprised he was in total chock when he walked through the door! But I'll tell you more about it later, when I have the pictures and stuff.

Right now I'm at Alvaro's and we've just eaten a wonderful breakfast with his family and friends. Me, Micha, Elias, Sara and ofc Elin spent the night here, along with his brother and his family and his mom and aunt. Ergo, BIG family breakfast :D We eaven ate cake! That's what I call birthday!

Well, I gotta go cus I have tp go to Huddinge! My students have their show today!!! I'M NERVEOUS!! :P

C y'all latah!! <3

 I tried to take a nice picture of myself so you could see what I look like tonight,
 but since that was impossible I'll give y'all this one instead ;) I'm initiating my jumpsuit tonight! :D
 Have a good night! And ofc here a nice tune for ya! ;)

Mornin'... I'm not ready to go up or even be awake yet. But here I am with only 6½ h of sleep(some of you might be okay with that, I'm not one of you) , after a night out. And I have danceclass this morning. Don't you just love those saturday mornings when you get to reaaaaally sleep in? Well, no for me. Tinkäan practise starts at 12, gotta take the 11 train. It wouldn't be so bad if I lived closer to practise, but it's all my own chocie so...

Shit gott hurry up and eat my breakfast... hurry hurry, curry curry! I'll write lataaah bitches ;)

I'll give y'all this one... not a pretty sight, eh?

 

we dance to the beat by rebbo

Ahh, I'm going mad with this new jumpsuit of mine! I wanna use it now now now! Question is, since I'm going out tonight should I wear it? Or save it for a more special event, like New Years? I don't think I can wait that long!! I wanna wear it when I dance to the beat...

Yeah I'm not really done yet.. I've barely started, but it's gonna happen! I'm gonna clean, because I want a clean appartment filled with Christmas ornaments! :)

I hade the weirdest dream last night by the way! I dreamt that I was a cow, and I lived happily with my friends on a farm. But then the owner of the farm sold the farm to an evil cowboy who wanted to slaugher us all. Some of the cows escaped, but we got locked in. However me and my little buddy had an escape plan. And it worked! We got out of the farm and started running (on two legs, if you wanted to know), but at the farm the raised the alarm that we had escaped and two of the cowboys came after us! But my little buddy was very young and couldn't run that fast so I had to carry him. We ran in to the woods, thinking we've made it. But the cowboys were right behind us. However, we soon realized one of them was nice and wanted to help us run away from the mean owner! So they gave us some food (potatoes) and let us rest. And we thought everything was fine now, we can be free and stroll around eating grass all day... No, the evil owner figured out that the cowboys had helped us and he came after us himself! So we had to run from him instead, but it was no use because he was much faster than us. He caught up with us, and that's when I woke up...

And if you read that, I'll have to tell you you just missed like two minutes of your life reading that... But THANK YOU for being such a wonderful reader of my blog! Oh, and if you're having any thoughts of my sanity, I already told you in my first caption of the blog that I'm not sane. But for real, I'm not insane, my mother had me tested.

Hello everyone! Today I'm gonna clean my appartment! Wihooooooo... NOT. Well, it's nice when it's clean. And when I'm done cleaning it's time to decorate it for Christmas! :D I'll fix my Christmas tree and decorate it, try to fix some curtains... it's gonna be real nice when I'm done! First time I decorate since I've moved away from home, so I'm initiating my first Christmas in my first appartment! ^^

So to get in the right mode, here's some Mariah Carey for ya!

Nighty night! I'm gonna turn off the computer now and go to bed watching a movie. I think I'll light some candles too, gotta cozy it up a night like this. Especially when you freeze you ass off INDOORS! Winter's here, and prepare for the worst! The only thing getting me through this winter is the knowledge of me not being here the next one, and hopefully not the one after that either! I'm leaving this damn country! :D

Anyway, I bid you a good night.


I'm gonna watch Lord of the rings now. I've read all the
books and love the movies. Yeah, yeah call me nerd, whatev..
OH, and when I was 11 I was totally in love with Legolas,
but Orlando Bloom is kinda yummie still, huh?  ^^

Msn conversation between me and my friend Elin:

R- förresten, vilken säsong e vi på nu i sverige?

E-7

R- aha,har kollat på tv så då har man ju inte koll

E- hahaha exakt det finns lixom avsnitt jag inte ens kommer ihåg från säsong 1, helt sjukt jaghar följt serien i 5 år

R- aa galet, samma me desperate o de e ju ännu längre!

E- aaa lika länge

R- näee, längre

E- Säsong 2 är 19 timmar lång totalt

R- oj!

E- nope dom kom sammtidigt faktiskt

R- men kom inte desperate på våren och greys på hösten samma år? liiiite längre

E- så kan det ha vart

R- haha, största nördarna

E- hahahaha that´s what I love about myself though

R- amen to that sista!

I felt that thursday could have it's own caption, not that thursday's all that or anythin'.. don't get arrogant now thursday, I'm warnin' ya!

After Johanna and I woke up we went to the cemetery to light some candles for my parents and leave flowers at a friends grave who recently died. So we went there to pay our respects. Then we took the train back to Jakobsberg and ate. We were really craving sushi, so that's what it had to be! It was really cozy there, and we ate our sushi and shrimp-crisps and just chatted, normal girl-talk, totally awesome! :)


<3


forgot to take a picture before I started, but it was too delicious to resist!


crack...

I know the quality of my camera sucks. If you want better pictures please give me money to buy a new camera!

MY MONDAY:

I woke up, ate, chilled, went home to gran and ate, and baked!! :D I don't know if you recall me writing like two weeks ago that we were supposed to bake but my granny forgot. Haha, anyway we baked this monday instead, and in true christmas spirit we made Lucia buns! Sooooo delicious! I'm actually eating what's left of them right now, perfect with a cup of chai tea! Yummie! My grandparents are the GREATEST btw, because they've saved all of my old Disney movies! So we ate freshly made buns and watched Atlantis (not a very popular Disney move, but still awesome ;)) and I took a whole bunch of them home like The Lion King, Mulan, Beauty and the Beast, you know the classics! ^^

Clumsy fact of the day: It's very common to be in a hurry for the bus, especially for me. I'm always late. Anyway, I'm in a hurry to make it to the bus, don't you think I take all my things except for the keys, I smash the door shut and I'm half-way down the stairs when I realize I don't have my keys and I've locked myself out?! Lucky me I have a spare key at my sister's. But talk about detour!! At least I didn't have to call a locksmith...


Gran made the traditional one's ,while I made cats and a little fellow with a hat ^^

T-t-t-TUESDAY:

Not a really special day, spent most of it indoors watching movies, since it was FREEZING outside. Although I had to face it in the evening because I hade danceclass with Tinkäan. Amanda was in charge of the choreo and she did a mix of hip hop with a ragga groove. It was really nice, I loved the feeling of dancing it! Here's the song :)

WE WEDNESDAY:

First Lana and I had a meeting with Study Abroad, for our studies in NEW YORK BABY!! :D Aaah, it's getting closer! We signed some forms so I can really feel it becoming reality! The only thing is I've got to have 80 grand for studying a year! 160 000 if I want to study the whole program which is two years :'( But I'm GONNA MAKE IT!! I'll apply for every scholarship there is!

After the meeting we met up with Johanna and Sandra, and we went ice skating in Kungsträdgården! It was so cozy and we had ALOT of fun! Especially when I fell on my ass infront of everyone, that was fun eh? My right buttcheek still hurts...

After the ice skating Johanna, Sandra and I went to eat at Max. Then we looked around in town and I found the jumpsuit I've wanted for weeks! And after trying it on and showing it to Johanna and Sandra I finally bought it! All happy with my jumpsuit we took the train home to Johanna. There we made candied apples, food-orgasm, but OUCH for your gums.. and we watched Moulin Rouge. Cozyness in a box ^^


gracefulness itself right?


Sandra and Johanna


We tried to be hood...

Hey you guys! I'm sorry for the lousy update this week, but I was kinda having the week off from my computer. I felt that we had spent too much time together lately and we needed a break. We needed to be apart from eachother for a while, get some space.

But now I'm BACK! ;D And with me I bring stories from this past week, of which I though nothing would happen. I really thought this week would be really boring, I love when life surprises you! I've had a really fun week! I'll tell you more about it in a sec, but first here's the song of the day!

Oh, lord... I'm tired and I really don't feel like going teaching right now. Especially since my foster-parents are gathering the family this afternoon to celebrate the 2nd of Advent. And I'll miss it. :( If I'm lucky they're still there when I get back! Last sunday I told you my class were going to preform today, but that got postponed to next sunday instead, so today is just rehursal. But still it's important and I have to go. But I know that once I get there I'll have a lot of fun though, it's just getting there :P


My teacher Camme did a choreo to this song, so this song always me me happy and in the mood to dance! ^^

... I get that my sunday nights usually are kinda slow and chill. But not my saturday nights!! I'm so boooored right now! From intense partying to just sitting at home doing absolutley nothing?! Well, I'm gonna bake something atleast and then go watch a movie and light candles, that's the least I can do for myself on this night!

Oh yeah, I just talked to Lana on the phone. At least she lightened my mood a bit!


This totally describes our friendship. Lana always being the weird crazy ass
and me getting irritated. Love you friend<3

Aaah, I'm bored! I don't know what to do! I was supposed to go to danceclass today but I felt sick as hell (not beacuse of yesterday, I barely drank anything) so I didn't go. I woke up like two hours ago and I have no idea what to do today... :( Well, I'll check around with some people, see if there's something to do today.

In the meantime I'll give you some good music!

They played this song alot yesterday at Entourage :)

It was a long day yesterday. And I had so much to do that I didn't have time to write anything! After Lana met up in Jakobsberg I went to recycle some cans while she was in the library, but something went wrong with the recycler so I had to stand there for 20 minutes and wait! Lana even got finished before me, and came to see what was taking so long. But to look on it from the bright side we did get free coffee and cookies while we waited (not because of the machine). Then we went to Siba, because we thought we had a contact there who said they might need more employees soon. But when we get there and hand in our resumes to this guy who've worked there for two years, we ask him if he knows Anthony, but there's no one named that who'd worked there for the past 2 years!!! HAHAHAHAHAH, HE IS SOOOO BUSTED!! :D Liar, liar...

Anyway, after that we parted because Lana had to work and I met up with two friends of mine Nina and Yasmina! We had a cup of coffee in Jakan, talked a bit, did some catching-up because we rarely get to see each other. Around 5 I had to go home because some of my dance friends were coming over for my friend Camme (who was my dance teacher) was selling some of her clothes! And mind you her clothes are FIERCE! And because it was at my place I sold some clothes too! :) And I bought a satin leopard patterned jacket and a baseball cap straight from NY! :D

After the sale I went home to another friend, Sema, and we pre-partied a bit before going out. Lana and Yuliana were there too. The four of us equals GOOD TIMES! We went to Entourage at Victoria. It was good, could have been better (mostly the musica) but the most important thing was that we had fun! And we also saw some firsthand drama, a guy and one of the doorkeepers got in to a fight! And the doorkeeper hits the guy so he falls, and then kicks him while he's lying down! Such a jerk! Of course the whole thing blows up and there was like 20 people standing out there fighting with each other or trying to stop the fight, and don't forget all the people standing outside watching... Some people, huh? Oh and Lana wanted me to mention that there was some "celebrities" there.


At the freaking recycler machine that stoped functioning!


Lana waiting for ze buz... I showed her some good music that's why she
has my earphones on :P


Me waiting for the bus with good music


Me at Sema's. This is when we were going out. I was joking around with
Lana but then she wanted to take a picture of it! Haha.


On our way to Entourage, from the left Sema, Yuliana and Lana <3

Shit, I'm in such a hurry! I was supposed to meet up with Lana at 13.30, and when I'm writing this it's 13.22... I got a lot of stuff to do. Mail some letters, go recycle some cans and go to Siba with Lana to leave them my resumee. And then when I get home I have like a million things to do.... Gaaaah..

See y'all later!

Dance or die... I'm crazy but you like it!

Omg... I'm so tired! Gotta go to sleep now. I've been sitting up for various reasons, first it was because of all the talks I've had with different ppl. And then I started going trough some paperwork. And then I fixed my resumé, and my letter. And that led me to look around for some jobs... Well, cross your fingers that I get a job soon, I really need one since I live by my self. Anyway, I'm rambling on here... time to go to bed! Tomorrow's gonna be a fun day! I'll tell you more about it in the morning, cause I won't do the stories justice now..

Peace out peeps<3

There're some really talented singers out there.. I saw this clip like a year ago but tonight I found them again when I was looking around on Youtube :)

I forgot to buy detergent! HAHAHAHA, so now I can't wash my clothes! Damn it! Seriously epic fail... Have to reschedule it to next week instead. Probably for the best anyway, didn't feel like standing down in the laundry room all night... What to do now? Eeehh, let's chill ;)

Here's an other song for ya today. Listened to it on the way home and got a lot of inspiration from it, think I'm gonna do a choreo to this for my class.

And yes, it's in Street Dance 3D...

Wow, today was an intense day. And it's not over yet... Lot's of talks with people, lot's of drama... But the best talk of the day was clearly with Sali! I don't know what I would do without you! Thank you for being such a wonderful friend, I can always talk to you knowing you'll speak your mind. That's a quality I appreciate most in a friend! Love you to death!


At John Chris, Sali was a good girl and ate lunch, whilst I satisfied my
sweet tooth :)


Plattan, Christmas is getting near! :D

Oh, almost forgot to tell you! Sali gave me my B'day present today cus she couldn't be there at my party. And she gave me such a good present! Dinner and drinks at Vapiano, and then we're gonna go out after!! :D So we scheduled it in in her calendar (I don't really need one :P) for next friday, can't wait!! Thank you so much Sali, you're the BEST! <3

Well, gotta go to the laundry room. That's life when you live alone, alot of boring grown up stuff to do like wash your clothes.. ^^

Not, really but still I kinda just woke up. The glorys of being unemployed... Sadly my mood is the same as it was last night, but only I can fix it. Therefore a day with a lot of phonecalls and discussions awaits me.

But before that I'm going in to town to meet up with my friend Sali! I've know her like forever! We've known eachother for 13 years or something like that!! Sadly we lost contact in High School, but we picked it up again this fall. And I'm really glad we did cus we have a really wonderful friendship! <3

We're having a cup of coffe at one of my favorite coffehouses in Stockholm; John Chris on Drottninggatan! It's reallt one of the BEST! It's cozy there, good coffe, good food and good patisseries!

Have a good one!

...of everything right now. Well, I'll solve it. Right now I need a shower and to go to bed. Don't feel like doing anything anyway. Furthermore I have to get up eary tomorrow. One more day, then it's friday...

Gaaaaaaaaaaaah...... ah well, good night everyone!

Wiiiiie! Today it's wednesday and you know what that means!! GREY'S ANATOMY! :D I'm compleately sold on it and I absoultly LOVE it!  I've watched that show ever since it started, and I never get bored by it. Total love. Always. Unless Christina quits the show, cus then I won't watch it anymore. I think. Another one of my favorites is...


JESSE WILLIAMS who plays the role as Dr. Avery! Oh God I could just
die cus he's so HOT! MARRY ME?!?!?!? :D Btw, did you know he's
part Swedish! Yup, his mother's from Sweden, that's why he has those
wonderful blue eyes<3


I'm totally droooooolin'!!!!! Yummie...

Okay, I finally had the guts to check out my procentange/points of my grades (I graduated this summer=six months ago)! And I'm so extreamly happy, bacause I just found out that it iiiiiiissss 18,77!!!!!! :D:D:D That was my goal all along, ever since I started high school! I knew I couldn't get 20,0 or 22,5 as it is now, I always aimed for around 17-18 something, and I did IT!! I'm soooo proud of myself right now! Oh happy day...


Me this june when I graduated. That's a day I'll remeber for the rest of my life!

Whaddup everyone?! Good mornin' y'all! Yes I know it's almost three o'clock... Hehe. As you may know I was supposed to go to a seminar this morning. But when the alarm went off at 7 I just couldn't go up. So I turned the damn thing off and went back to sleep. Ah, wonderful, I think I slept for 13 hours! There's no doubt that I feel relaxed and refreshened! Good thing is that I feel that my mood is so much better than yesterday, I just needed a good nights sleep, and for a new day to come :)


This song reflect my good mood!